I miss the way he looked at me as if he saw some beauty there.
He’d say, “Come sit and tell me all about your day”.
Then he’d hold me close and stroke my hair
as my troubles drifted away.
I miss the way he’d dance with me just because he knew
it was the one thing I truly enjoyed.
Dancing mattered to him not at all.
He simply wished to please.
Perhaps he needed more from me than just being there for him?
I miss seeing him across the table as we sipped a glass of wine.
I loved the way he’d speak to me about his life and world.
I loved that when I spoke to him he seemed to hear my words.
I miss when he’d stop talking and take me in his arms.
I miss him making love to me and sleeping all night wrapped in his arms.
How can one miss what one never really had?
How could I have been so wrong?
Your mind plays tricks on you as you age.
Have we become too old to love?
Is it possible hearts broken so many times can no longer feel?
Is it possible none of it was ever real?
November 8, 2011